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Happy Birthday to me~!

2010-04-01T19:34:00.000-07:00

I'm sixteen today~~!!!

Arigatou Gozaimasu to everyone who wished me a happy birthday on facebook, MSN and in rl. xD

I lobve you allll~!

Today my Mom came in my room and covered my beds with balloons. I was already awake but I made it look like I was still sleeping >w>

So she and my sister sang happy birthday to me and she gave me a card from her and my older sister.

[I'm spoiled. You have no idea honestly XD]

I spent the day talking to my friends on the phone and replying back to the zillion birthday wishes I got on facebook :D

Thanks again everyone. I truly wouldn't have made it this far without you all.

I went to a japanese restaurant to celebrate but I should say this now: My birthday celebration extends for three whole days.

WOOT WOOT

First the restaurant, I get my nose pierced on Friday and I'm going to a club after that and on Saturday....ANOTHER japanese restaurant with more of my family.

Happy sweet sixteen to meeee!

I'll post up the pictures from the restaurant tomorrow.

By the way, I liked the restaurant....ALOT. Our chef was really hilarious XD he was making me laugh too much so it was difficult to eat my food x3

When he started cooking there were flames that were rising up and it scared me and my mom and sister XDDDD

He ish a beast though, handling the cooking tools like that~

The waitresses sang me a birthday songgggg~

They scared the beetlejuice out of me when they rang a gong near our table haha. After they sang it, they let me ring it for good luck~~~

Let's see.....I'm gonna see if I can get a job there hopefully. I need $$$ for all the things I want to buy from e-bay lol.

I still can't believe I'm 16. It was only yesterday that I was seven years old, laying in my bed at night, thinking about what I was going to do when I'm sixteen. I miss those days owo

A roundup of March

2010-03-30T14:08:00.000-07:00

What can I say? What can I say?

March has been a wild month for me.

So much has happened, I don't know where to begin.

I'll start off with my good news:

I got seleted with other students to go to a University because of academic achievements, good behavior and activities around the school. There was an oratorical contest, essay contest and a talent contest.

Knowing me I entered the essay contest and the talent contest XDD;

Ahem~ So I did my essay the day before it was due [Yeesshhhh, I am NOT good with deadlines. I is working on that nao ._.]

I gave it to the person who got me into entering it in the first place, that was one worry that was lifted from my shoulders XD.

There was the other issue of picking my talent. I thought of stand up comedy at first~ THEN I wanted to dance instead XDD

I'm a big fan of BoA~~

Eat you Up and I Did It For Love were my first choices but in the end I chose Eat you Up.

It was SO HARD TO LEARN~!

Blah. I kept messing up and the day that we would leave to go to the University was approaching faster than I thought. Trust me, I was proud of myself that I learned part of it. Yet the date was getting to close and I wasn't making much progress.

I switched my song to Bad Romance by Lady Gaga. I am goo-goo for Gaga -shot-

I learned that dance in a couple of days. GO MEEEE~~~

A-Anyways, so basically I was all set and ready to go. My sister came back from college and helped me pick out a costume and did my makeup. So I had to go to my school at 5:30 in the morning x.x

We got on a cahrter bus and the people that I was sitting near prevented me from falling asleep x3. Some other people were sleeping but I was too hyper and awake to do that XD~

I recorded some videos and I hope to upload them onto my facebook.

Basically when we arrived we had an orientation and met up with some other students who go to different schools around my area and the students that actually attended the university. We asked them questions about college and things we needed to know when we apply. Plus we got to learn about the founder of the university and other things as well.

I was extremely nervous when lunch time rolled around. There was good food there and I pigged out but.....I WANTED TO FAINT!

I represented my school in the talent contest since I was the only one that wanted to do it. And so....the time came for me to perform. I was not prepared at all~

The new friends that I made wished me luck but I was shaking so badly. The announcer called my name and I went up the stairs and danced my heart out.

[The video is on my facebook. E-mail me if you want to see it.]

I WAS SO PROUD OF MYSELF~NYAN!

Honestly I didn't care if I won or lost. I was proud that I had the courage to do it in front of everyone :D

I think that everyone who performed did a really good job~ I am so proud of you all~ GO TABLE 23!!!! <3>.>

This is the first time that my birthday list is less than 10 items haha.

-A new cell phone [the one i have hates me and I use up my minutes too quickly]
- New Moon and Twilight [TEAM JACOB BBY!]
- A new microphone [current one has poor quality]
-A JOB!!! Srsly...XDD
-Ninja Assasin [MUST GET THIS NAO]
-A webcam so I can chat with my friends from school <3

The first time I saw it, I instantly knew that I wanted it [still, not having a ps3 does prevent a problem]

If I had the money I'd choose the Cloud Black ps3 but it's like $800 so I want to save that for christmas and get Gackt nine*nine from ebay if its still available XDD

Moving on now~ I still can't believe my birthday is tomorrow. March was such a wild month for me, I can't imagine what my birth month will be like. This month has taught me alot in concern of my heart and how I wear it out on my sleeve.

I make irrational decisions and regret them later. It's all a big cycle that I'm trying to end. I say this now and give my heart away, only to have it broken again. What's love really? That's what I want to find out. And I think now that waiting for it instead of searching it is the best option right now. I want to be appreciated for who I am, rather than my outward appearence. Sure I'm strange, but everyone has something about them that sets them apart from the crowd. Others think I'm dumb, some think I'm smart. What do you think hmm?

Complicated....that's what all of this is. I'm so hurt and lost right now, I can't even describe the depth of my pain. Hopefully all of this will be set aside for tomorrow. I don't want to ruin my birthday over something trivial.

For all that have stuck by me, I need your strength and prayers. Thank you for helping me thus far, I hope times will get better with the new month. I love you all dearly. Ai shi te ru~

This man....his music. They bring my soul to life. May his greatness continue on.

Your irreplaceable flower~~

Forever mine~~

2010-02-27T10:05:00.000-08:00

You won't believe how busy I've been this week >_<

I've had three major tests, all in different classes of course *dies*

My first one was in Biology...I did study but I don't think I did so well on it. I was missing something from that class and ended up doing a report on Charles Darwin to get some points.

Gah- my stress levels have been HIGH this week

So then I had a World History test that was set on thursday but we didn't have school that day so it was on Friday. I don't like taking tests on Fridays...I HATE IT NYAN!

I was SO hoping it wouldn't be on Friday but it was....sadly xD;

I know I passed that, I studied until my eyes hurt.

And I was supposed to have a spanish test on friday as well but THAT got moved to next wednesday...I think >_>

Anyways that's my week thus far. I'm spending the weekend at my dad's house xD

I took some pictures of some clothes my mom bought for me and some Ed Hardy's shoes I got. I never realized how spoiled I am until I looked at the price tags of my clothes and the designer names on them owo.

What else.....OH! Wednesday was the last game for the basketball season. It was Senior's Night so you know what that means? CHEERLEADING ISH OVERRRRRR NOOOOOO!

I had a great time though. My coach let me announce the names of the senior cheerleaders and basketball players.I was so nervous my hands wouldn't stop shaking. This season went by SO SO SOOOOOOOOOO fast. I'm gonna miss wearing my uniform and cheering. I'll never forget my fellow cheerleaders! I'm going to try out for next year's squad also and maybe a private one if my friend gives me more information.

For the spring season I wanna try for the Varsity Tennis team. I told my mom about it and she was like," Can you even PLAY tennis?". You can imagine how crushed I was rofl. I'm going to ask my dad if he can buy me a tennis racquet.

...........moving on nowwww.

ask me things on formspring! www.formspring.me/Chikibon

I'll post up the pictures in my next post when I get home. I didn't bring my camera with me xD

Everyone's been talking about their crush-kuns lately.....I'm the only one that doesn't have one that I can say I really like xD

Gackuto ish my crush-kun <3333.

I saw Percy Jackson and the Olympians. That.movie.is.AWESOME! Really, I think everyone should see it xD

It's that great. Well if you like mythology and all then you'd love it haha.

Ciao~!

Chinese New Year and beyond.

2010-02-16T13:47:00.000-08:00

Hey guys, I'm sorry for not updating as much as I should be. I've not had the blogging bug for a while but I'm going to try blogging more. Sorry if I made it seem like I would never blog again.

ALOT has happened since my last update. Well for starters, my Grandfather is feeling better from what my cousin and sister told me. For everyone who wished him well, thank you from the bottom of my heart. It would have killed me if he passed away.

Valentine's Day......psh XD. I'm my own valentine esta bien? Haha it felt like any other day basically lol. I just slept in and my mom sent me and my sister up to our rooms while she did some things downstairs. So we're wondering why we got sent to our rooms and she tells us to come out xD. There was a balloon, teddy bear, chocolates and a card sitting in front of our doors. I was shocked >_>' I thought we were in trouble or something haha. So Valentine's Day didn't suck for me this year.

IT WAS CHINESE NEW YEARS ALSO! WE'RE NOW IN THE YEAR OF THE TIGER! RAWR! I should have posted that on my facebook instead of Happy V-Day XD!

Didn't even know about that until I went on msn that day xD.

Let's see.....oh i'm really really REALLY into korean pop music now. You won't believe how many music videos I've been watching by famous korean singers o_o

Aha-There's been alot of blizzards around where I live and I just got off a TWO WEEK BREAK! Yeah I know I could have blogged during that time. I just wasn't in the mood to. I apologize everyone! Truly, I'm sorry :x

No school for roughly two weeks. Imagine that. And I had school today (DARN IT) but i'm kinda glad because now I won't be sitting around the house like a lazy bum.

I'm so sad today. I have to uninstall itunes from my computer because it won't let me add the new songs onto my ipod. For a minute I thought i'd have to get another ipod or another cord that connects it to my computer. Hopefully when I uninstall it my songs won't get lost. Half of my songs aren't even available on itunes so that worries me the most xD.

This be the music video I'm obsessed over right now.

Ok I just recently discovered this group so I don't know that much about them *headdesk*

So far this is my favorite song of theirs [That i've heard]

The video is self-explanatory since the lyrics tell everything from the viewpoint of the girl. Basically the guy is a famous celebrity that she loves and she wants him all to herself. So she kidnaps him and holds him hostage. He wants out but she won't let him because she wants him to be with her. She tries to feed him but he doesn't accept the food and [the weirdest part of this video] when he starts to smell.....she PUTS HIM in the WASHER.

.............................................................................................

I'll let you all process that for a minute.

Done yet? Ok moving on.

He can't take it anymore and he puts gasoline [or something flammable liquid] all over himself and tries to light himself on fire. The funny part about this is, he has a lighter, she sees what he's about to do but there are candles RIGHT BEHIND HIM. Yes it's horrible to say he could have just taken a candle and ended everything right there but that's what I was thinking when I saw that part of the video. She reaches him in time and puts the lighter out with a fire exstinguisher. Don't know why she couldn't just blow it out [I have alot of stuff to say about this video xD].

She sees how sad he is and starts building a rocket to send him to the stars to be with the other "stars". Odd yes? I can't say its an oxymoron....no matter how tempted I am D:<

When the rocket is finally built, she knocks him out with some gas and puts him on the rocket. She presses the button to start it and it doesn't work and he dies. What I don't understand is how it blows up when he's on top of it and the rocket is still put together. But in the video, the lights start flashing, things fall apart and its a messy deal. Before it "exploded" the guy woke up and saw what he was on and started freaking out. She freaks out as well because she sees that the rocket isn't working the way she thought it would. So he unexpectedly dies and she falls to the ground crying. I didn't notice this at first but at the end it goes back to her standing in a alley before she kidnaps him. I'm assuming she was deciding on whether or not she should kidnap him because she probably visualized everything that would happen if she did.

I adore the lyrics to this song honestly. They've got the same feel like "Wedding Dress" by Taeyang. How many of us have fallen in love with someone to a point where we'll stop at nothing to make them ours? Or become consumed with this desire for someone and it drives you crazy and no matter how much that person says that they don't love you and when you think about how they'll never be yours, you just lose it pretty much. The guys in the video were singing about how the girl felt about the guy. How he'll never say he loves her, hold her, be someone who could love her in general. And she doesn't handle that well [obviously]

Even if she can't touch him or talk to him or have him just for herself, she loves him regardless. And that hits my heart the most about this video. Unrequited love is one of the worst pains in this world. He doesn't know her or see her but she sees him everywhere she goes. He is always on her mind and in her dreams.

Oh! (Even if I can't have you)
Even if it’s only in my mind
(Even if I can't touch you)
Even if it’s only a meaningless dream
(Even if I can't talk to you)
Even if I hide and watch from far away
(You know I do)
I love you
(Even if you don't know who I am)

Oh baby don't you know, you don't even know my name
I spend my sleepless nights gazing at you
Oh so beautiful, your solo picture clutched in my hand
The heartbreak of my crazy love buried in the cheers of the world
You’re not even listening, you wouldn’t even know if I died
Even in your next life you will live without knowing who I am
I want you so bad and it’s too late to turn back
Even tonight I want to kiss you so I clutch my pillow tight

Today is our first meeting right?
Only you have this sort of dialogue
Again today I talk to your retreating figure
It’s always the same thing but still I give a nervous hello
Even though the whole world’s stops listening, I only need you to hear me
The further you are the hardened my heart becomes, please listen to me
Farther, and farther, fortune works wherever Will I be able to see you? (Tell me)

Oh! (Even if I can't have you)
Even if it’s only in my mind
(Even if I can't touch you)
Even if it’s only a meaningless dream
(Even if I can't talk to you)
Even if I hide and watch from far away (You know I do)
I love you
(Even if you don't know who I am)

Darling, why are you not smiling today?
It would be nice if it was not a big problem
I couldn’t look at your face filled with anxiety
It would be better if I was in pain but the impossibility of that brings regret
Hold me, the one who could respond to your question of “how are you?”
Can’t come close, can’t touch, you’re the one I can’t hold
I’m going to go meet you tonight in my dreams
Even if in my dreams everyone ridicules my love
Even though everyone says I am crazy and the entire world disappears
Babe you belong to me, but why are the worthless multitudes talking you away?
No, there is no way. I’ll make you see only me
I’ll give you everything, I’ll make your lips meet mine,
I’ll go get the world and give it to you
I’ll make it so you can never leave me,
I’ll keep you in my sunken heart
You are My star, I’m your no.1 fan
Baby please, take my hand

Oh! (Even if I can't have you)
Even if it’s only in my mind
(Even if I can't touch you)
Even if it’s only a meaningless dream
(Even if I can't talk to you)
Even if I hide and watch from far away
(You know I do) I love you
(Even if you don't know who I am)

Boys and Girls in a crazy love say oh! oh! oh!
Boys and Girls in a stupid love say oh! oh! oh!
Boys and Girls in a meaningless love say oh! oh! oh!
Boys and Girls in a love like mine say oh! oh! oh!
Even if you don't know who I am!!

How many of us can honestly relate hmm? I know I can. I'm not afraid to admit it. One of the many disadvantages of love. You never really use your head with your heart. And one of the hardest things in the world is watching someone you love be happy with someone else.

Thanks for reading.

The struggle

2010-02-04T14:45:00.000-08:00

It's human nature to want something. Does it make it wrong to want so much? Nobody died from it the last time I checked.

I just found out my grandfather is dying from a heart attack he had. My cousin is asking my family to make a book that he could read. A book full of pictures, poems, stories things like that. He always loved to read. That's probably why I like it so much. You know that feeling you get when you hear something bad and your heart just breaks on the spot? How a simple sentence can destroy your day and throw you back 10 steps from where you were. That kind of feeling that robs you of your breath and leaves you wondering where the heck it came from. Yeah......

That's exactly how I felt. Upon hearing that several lines of poetry came to my mind. I'll start writing some this weekend if I don't cry myself a river. You never really understand how great or important someone is until they're on the verge of disappearing from your life. I last saw him at Christmas. I didn't know about the battle he was fighting inside himself. The battle that would determine if he would live to see the next day. It's a painful thought to have in mind. A loved one using every ounce of their strength to keep us all happy instead of drifting away from us. It's hard to think about right now without crying my eyes out (again....). Why? It's a simple question really. Why now? Why him? Why that way? He's on the verge of dying.....he could not last the week. My cousin told me there wasn't anything else the doctor could do for him. So he's been sent home to spend the remainder of his life with us.

I never thought it would happen this way, and not in this time...no, I refuse to let hope slip between my fingers. I'll pray every night for him, I'll do whatever it takes to keep him alive. When I let someone into my heart or when I form a bond with someone, I can't let them release them like it's no big deal. I'll write for him, but I won't write as if he's already passed away. I'll write for hope that maybe this isn't his time. Maybe it's a challenge in disguise.

Roller coaster ride

2010-02-02T10:18:00.000-08:00

Aha, I haven't posted in almost a month. I've been really out of it....

Alot has happened in January and blogging hasn't been on my "to do" list. I've been depressed mostly but I'm working through that. Thanks for your concern you guys. It's really appreciated <3

Anyways, my birthday is coming up in two months. I don't even have any plans to be honest >.>

I'll just go out with family and probably invite some friends over. Nothing special I guess.

Basketball season is almost over neee. I dun want it to end >_< I won't be able to wear my cheerleading uniform anymore lol. This was a great experience for me and I'll never forget it. I've grown up with my fellow cheerleaders and formed some bonds that will hopefully last. I lobve you all~~<33333 Eh. I might change my layout soon, this one seems outdated XDD.

*spazzes* I GOT A VIEW FROM JAPAN!!!!

Holy mackarel I'm happy now 8DDDD.

Keep the views coming Kudasai~

SHINJUUUUUUUU.....I lobve your japanese posts. They're cho kawaii ^o^

SHOUT-OUTS!!!!

2010-01-09T10:30:00.000-08:00

*points* That be the actual Chikibon kthxbai XDDD.

Just wanted to say thanks to ALL of my friends. (I'm missing a few but don't worry! I will make another video....if I have the time >.>)

I'm thinking of doing dance covers and MAYBE some fandubs but here are the problems.

I don't know ANY songs to fandub (I want to do J-Pop, K-Pop, Mando-Pop, Canto-Pop songs. That's alot of pop I know XD. Yet I want to do Buono, S-mileage but I'm not familiar with those groups so I wouldn't know what to sing.
I have a busy schedule most of the time so if I'm going to do a fandub or a dance cover, the songs will have to be easy to learn. I'm not lazy, it's just a matter of time for me.
I don't really have the best singing voice BUT I'M WORKING ON IT NYAN! I shouldn't really list this because I'm taking lessons and what not xD.
Learning the langauge of the song I'm doing won't be hard. I know some japanese and other languages so yeah XD.
Also, would people think I'm being a copycat? There are dozens of other people out there doing this and I don't want to look like I'm following the crowd. So....idk if anyone would support me >.<
I've been a dancer for a while but if I'm going to do a dance cover, I'll have to download the music video and put it on my ipod so I can learn it on the go XD. Which is a problem because my mom banned me from downloading stuff onto our computer anyway *.*

S-So I have alot to think about. In the meantime, PLEASE RECOMMEND SOME SONGS THAT I COULD POSSIBLY SING/DANCE TO!

OH! Another problem. You see the camera I used to make the shout-out video? Idk how I'm going to use that for dance covers seeing as to how I couldn't put the timer on it to start. I had to press the button to make it record so if I dance to it, it'll look akward for me to start the camera and run off to start the music I'm dancing to >.<

Editing tips for videos, please give me some as well. Like improving sound, quality, music etc. ARIGATOU GOZAIMASU for your help!

It's greatly appreciated. I gotta go practice my instrument now. My mom is getting on my case -_-.

Just a quick post

2010-01-06T18:54:00.000-08:00

(*_*)

I GOT A BLOG VIEW FROM HONG KONG!!!!!

If it came from Misa-chan, Thanks so much! Keep viewing! Hopefully I'll get one from Japan >.>

I ish cho happy right now xD.

A-And also because....I have no school today cuz it snowed last night! SWEEEEEEET!

Last night's game was so awesome though. We won against my old school (*gasp*). Yes my old school was there so I was confused as to who I should cheer for lols. Odd how my new school and old school have the same colors....

but yeah........................

I saw some of my old friends! nice to see them.

Oh! And I got a new vest cuz I had to give the old one back. Now my uniform ish complete!

We were supposed to have cheer pics today but due to the snow....I don't know when we'll have them.

Yeah, I still feel like I can't trust some of my friends. New school=new opportunities blah blah blah and whatnot. Tis a terrible thing to feel but I guess I'll have to endure it until I can see who I can trust and who I can't. But for my online friends....THANKS FOR STICKING BY MEEE! I LUBB YOUS <3333

Also! I might might MIGHT record a dance cover or sing a song on youtube. Idk because soooo many people do it and I don't want to feel like I'm copying anyone and because....I just want to do something xD.

Fake friends

2010-01-04T16:59:00.000-08:00

I'm seeing alot of them lately. I feel like I can't trust anyone, all my words are sometimes twisted and rumors start and blah!So much drama! I can't stand it. I really can't. I hate to say it but I miss my old school. At least there I can actually tell who likes me or not.......enough emo-ness. I shall now spam with pictures (*insert crazy laugh*)

*Points* That be my awesome Fujifilm camera that GACKT advertised....*fangirl scream* o3o

My bath/lotion products. They smell so good! You can see my school picture in the background xD.

I just took this picture just cuz XDDD.

Ok THAT picture was before I got my hair done, I got a perm so it felt sooo smooth and soft. I wanted to leave it like that but I had to get the rest of it finished xD.

And that's what it looks like finished *u*. I kinda half-smiled in this pic.....gomen nasai!

Ah, yeah I want to upload more pictures but I'm too lazy >.<

Nothing really special happened today. I'm so glad I went back to school. I have plenty of things to keep my mind busy with. But I miss sleeping in! I hardly got any sleep last night. Just stayed up and watched my clock shift digits.

Imma change my blog layout now. Stay tuned for more!

Let me wear that wedding dress.

2010-01-02T20:02:00.000-08:00

Okay I must fangirl...or else I'll explode >.<

I lobve this song alot (but not as much as Saikai Story >.<). I found out about it from Naniko-chan on facebook xD. She posted it in her status and the first time I watched the video, I was hooked.

Let's ask ourselves this: Who wouldn't want to marry Taeyan? *cricket chirp*

Ok ok.....I know but I would have picked up that ring in the end -shot-

Such a nice song really. I posted the subbed version since it's in korean xD. But yeah....can you believe he's never had a girlfriend? KYAAAA.....it's adorable *fail*.

I hope he finds the right girl <3 Someone that talented deserves to be loved. I think I said that for Gackt but oh well lol.

It was strange in the video how that guy kept popping out of nowhere and interrupted Taeyang and the girl. Stalker much? And didn't even give the guy a chance to tell the girl how he felt, he just slipped the ring on her finger and Taeyang's standing there looking SO upset.

No one is to blame here. But there's the infamous lesson we all should remember: If you want something/someone, fight for it/them. If you wait too long, they won't be available to you. So make your move as soon as possible. Like the lyrics say,"Oh, please leave him and come to me.Baby, please don’t take his hand. Coz you should be my lady. I’ve been waiting for you for so long. Please look at me now. When the music starts, You will vow to spend the rest of your life with him. How I prayed every night, this day would never come. The wedding dress you’re wearing, it’s not me (next to you).You never knew how I felt about you. And I hated you so. Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy. Now I have no more tears left to cry. When I’m by myself I talk to you like you’re here. I’ve felt so restless every night. Maybe I’ve known all along this would happen. I close my eyes and dream an endless dream. Please leave him and come to me. Please be happy with him. So that I can forget you. Please forget how miserable I looked. It’s going to be unbearably hard for me. For a long while to come."

In the end, you don't want to regret doing nothing. You might spend your whole life regretting it. And it's better to have loved and lost than to have not loved at all. Unrequited love is so painful, nobody should have to endure it. Yet as human beings, with the emotion of love comes pain also. Spiteful words can hurt your feelings but silence breaks your heart. And it may break it to where it can't be fixed.

I can relate to Taeyang in this video sooooooooo much it's pathetic xD. I'm not gonna watch this video again....I might cry (I'm such a sucker for sentimental videos o////o)

2010~!!!

2010-01-01T12:20:00.000-08:00

I.totally.fail xDDD

M'kays well for starters, I wasn't all that excited about the new year for several reasons.

-Idk why but it didn't really feel like 2009 was coming to an end >.>
-I wasn't all that pressed to welcome the new year (meh I guess I was having a bad day xD)
-.......

So when the countdown began I was in my room listening to my ipod all "whatever, just another year to grow old." I didn't even watch the ball drop o3o.

BUT! Now I'm happy because 2009 is behind me and with a new school and new people, I CAN START OVER AGAIN! YATTAAAAAAA

Let's see....Oh! I'm plurking again xD. And on my Facebook I uploaded some new pictures....Naniko! Your macros are HILARIOUS! I wanna make some of my own but that would be copying you XD.

I think I might get a formspring also ^0^. Just so people can ask me questions and I can answer them honestly lols.

To the people who have been bashing Micchi and Shinju: Please get a life. Honestly why bring that negativity to their tagboards and blogs? Do you honestly think that hurts them? I may not know them in rl but your words are what they are: words. I've heard better insults than what you all are coming up with so please refrain from attempting to crush them with petty insults. Seeing as to uncreative you are with your insults, why not focus that energy into something positive?

(My mini-rant for today. Gomenasai.~)

I don't really have any resolutions because I always break them in the middle of the year xD.

Boring post, blah.

Christmas continued

2009-12-29T11:22:00.000-08:00

So back to where I left off.

So I just got the Wii and me and my sister are freaking out. But more presents came and I got the following.

Age of Empires 3 (Expansion pack. Asian Dynasties, War chiefs and age of empires 3)

BUT I CAN'T INSTALL IT ONTO MY COMPUTER!!!!! I spent a whole day trying to but I just get crap saying that my computer doesn't meet the requirements. I was cho upset ;w;

Hopefully I'll get things fixed later this week >_>

The nativity story:

I lobve this movie so much. The actress on the cover is pretty *0*

I got the Bully Game:Scholarship edition. That game is awesome XD

An Ecko Red jacket:

IT'S RED!!!! MY FAVORITE COLORRR *throws confetti*

[I don't want people using my pictures without permission so I'm putting a personal watermark on them. Sorry!]

Left 4 Dead 2 (PC version):

Now I found out about this game from G4 Game Premiers. It seemed scary at first but it's cool once you get the hang of it. I can't install this either. I'm so hurt =3=. I'm trying to get the nerve to play it. Luckily it's got multi-player so I won't have to play it alone XDD. I got the screen name of my step-brother so hopefully once this gets installed I can find him and he can play the game with me.

Sneakers~!:

Love those also. They're so kawaii.

Products from Bath&Body works. Let me tell you something, if there's anything I love it's bath products and items from Victoria's Secret and Bath and Body works. I have like an obsession with those stores. It's not even funny xD.

And drumroll.....HERE'S A PICTURE OF MEEEE!!!

I know I know. The watermark covers my face but I had to put it on XD.

I'll edit the other pics later on today.

Here's a pic of my ipod and cell phone

The battery of my cell phone has japanese kanji on it so....I guess it was made in Japan so I won't complain XDD. I <333>

See even Gackt can't help but cry to this song. There's so much emotion behind it....he must have had a major heartbreak to produce such a song. It makes me sad though but then again, love isn't love without pain. And behind every beautiful thing is some kind of pain. That's why Gackt is a legend. He can make you laugh one minute and cry the next. He may appear stoic but once he sings you see a whole different side of him you didn't think was there.When I saw him cry during this song, I cried too. To sing a song like this and the fact that it brings people to tears is just magic. As depressing as it may seem XD. Through this song and other songs you can relate to Gackt on a personal level in a way. His pain is your pain, your happiness is his happiness and so on and so forth. I mean HE WAS ACTUALLY CRYING! And if that was fake then he's a good actor XD. Sucks to think that he of all people would get a broken heart when there are thousands of girls willing to give him the love he deserves. And in the middle of the sad parts you feel joy also, kinda bittersweet in a way. The lyrics by itself are touching, add music and BAM! You'll be crying in minutes xD. The title means "Meeting Again-A story (Or Reunion)". Maybe Gackt wants to reunite with his lost lover or someone he held dearly. He even had a fever during this song. Such dedication to his fans! I heard he might even retire in 2010 depending on his health Dx. Nooooooo! WE need moar Gackt! The world needs him! He cannot stop! XDDD.

Oh! Here are the lyrics *Credit Anime Lyrics dot Com*
Original/Romaji lyrics--*

kasuka na hikari ni yobi samasarete
hakanai yume no kioku to kiesou na koe

toozakaru kako no zawameki wa
ima de wa mienai ano keshiki o utsushidashite yuku

soba de warau... kimi ga iru

sou... maru de kinou no koto no you ni oboeteiru yo
dare yori mo fukaku boku ni fureta sono manazashi o

wakachiau koto no yorokobi mo
kiseki no you na ano deai mo...
futari no omokage sae mo okizari ni shite kieteyuku

usureteyuku kioku no naka de
mou ichido dake dakishimetakute
setsunai kurai sakebitsuzukeru kimi no na o
koe ga nakunaru made

"Hito wa ittai doko kara kite, doko e iku n' darou?
Taisetsu na yasashii hito wa
kimi dake ga inai..."*

utsumuite furueru kimi o
kono ude de dakishimetakute
kono sekai no dare yori mo kimi o
mamoritai to kizuita kara

mou sukoshi de boku wa kieru kedo...
soredemo kimi dake wa hanashitaku wa nai
setsunai kurai kimi ni tsutsumareta ano hibi o
boku wa wasurenai

English Translation--*

Called back to consciousness by a faint light,
by the memory of a fleeting dream and the fading remnant of your voice,

the vivid stirring of that far-distant past
keeps reflecting a scene that now I can no longer see:

still at my side, smiling... you are here.

Ah... clear as though it were but yesterday, I still remember it!
That one glance which touched me more deeply than anyone else ever had...

The joy of what we shared
and that near-miraculous encounter
and even the last traces of what we were together -- all of it, deserted, vanishing away...

From within those vanishing memories,
I yearn to hold you just one more time.
To the verge of pain, I keep crying out your name
until my voice is worn to silence.

"Where is it that people come from, and where do they go?
My precious, gentle one--
you alone are no longer here..."*

I want to hold you in my arms
as you stand there trembling, head downcast.
Because I've realized that what I want
is to protect you, more than anyone else in all this world.

Soon now, very soon, I too will disappear, yet...
even so... you are the one last thing I cannot bear to let go.
Those days when you held me to the verge of pain--
I will never forget...

MERII KURISUMASU

2009-12-27T18:32:00.000-08:00

TWO DAYS LATEEEE~!!!!!

Gah. I know.

But I have lots to blog about nyan so get ready!

The days before Christmas were UBER boring to tell you the truth. I just sat around the house and did nothing but await the famous holiday xD. So the night before my mom tells me and my sister to make cookies for santa and leave milk out for him. I complained that I was too old to believe in Santa Claus (odd since I watched the ending of the movie "The Polar Express") and didn't want to do it. I ended up doing it anyway after my sister and I had some cookies but I left a sarcastic note.

"Dear Santa,

I am under no obligation to leave cookies out for you so consider this the last time I do so. I wouldn't want you to become a diabetic.

P.s. I am still waiting on that pony from first grade."

Haha I'm evil but it was all in good fun!

(*Random note: I'll post up my christmas pictures later after I put a watermark on them*)

We were told to be in bed early so we did at around ten o clock. I stayed up and read a book then fell asleep. I kept tossing and turning during the night so sleep was not an option for me XD. I just watched the sky change colors and went to the bathroom. I passed by my mom's room and she was sitting up in bed. I didn't say anything so I went to the bathroom and went back to my room. She comes in and she's all "WHY DIDN'T YOU WAKE ME UP??? IT'S CHRISTMAS!!!!"

By this time I was tired and wanted to go back to sleep lols. I got up and told her about my restless night but she was still upset *o*. Then my sister woke up and we ran downstairs and opened up presents.( Yes I will explain everything I got when I post up the pictures D<)

I'll tell you all the major things that I asked for later in this post.

So later on (around 10 am maybe) my sister, cousin and her boyfriend came to our house and saw everything we got. They gave us gifts too (but that's going to be explained XDD). So after a while we had to get ready to go to another place where we would get more presents. But to break the boring atmosphere....I GOT A FUJIFILM CAMERA NYAN!!!! MADE IN JAPANNNNNN...........X3. I fangirled and now I'm done kthxbai. Now I can add more pics on facebook, myspace plurk and everywhere else XD. Should I mention that Gackt-kun advertised this camera? Hmmm.....that also adds to my love for it ;D

Anywayyy, so when we got to the city my sister and I went to a local store to get some bagged ice then went up to the suite that held all our presents and gifts! Most of my family were on their way over so I took some pics of the beach that was nearby and watched TV. Earlier I sent a Merry Christmas text to all of my close friends but nobody would continue texting meeee. Oh well. My Grandmother was in the kitchen cooking dinner, which was good because I didn't really have breakfest and I was starving lol.

Later on everyone started arriving and we began eating dinner. We STILL had to wait cuz my dad and stepmom and their daughter were on their way over. I was itching to open up just ONE present. They were in the livingroom so I couldn't try and sneak one away >_>

The beach was so pretty, it was cold outside but it was relaxing to listen to. I went into another room and took a nap just by listening to the waves....I love the beach <333

FINALLY my dad came so we could start. Oh boy there was so much wrapping paper anywhere. I could just hear the trees screaming >_<. Twas sooooooo much fun. I can't even begin to say it. WE GOT A WIIIII!!!!!

Here's the story:

I was opening my presents and my stepmom handed me a big box. Once I opened it, it was accessories for the Wii console {baseball bat, driving wheel etc.}. And I'm all "O____O. This uhh....thanks but what's this for?" XD. She got a worried look on her face like "Did we get you the wrong thing?". I assured her it was fine then my sister gets handed a bigger box and we were instructed to open it together. Now the Wii wasn't on my list of things to get but my sister had been begging to get one since it was first released. As I'm typing this she's playing Mysims Kingdom and last night she played it till like 2 a.m. XDD

Ahh good times. Good times.

My fingers really hurt now. I'll blog more tomorrow.

Ciao~!

Family ish lobve

2009-12-21T21:25:00.000-08:00

Ahhhh I haven't blogged in forever. Gomen ne.~

I'm watching Sakai Story by Gackt once more. I'm crying my eyes out. I seriously can't get over this song.

It's so emotional and touching. That's why I luff him <33

Anywayss, alot and I mean ALOT has happened since my last post. I FINALLY GOT MY CHEERLEADING UNIFORM NYAN~! It's on my facebook (I'll post a picture of it later. I'm too lazy right now XD)

So I'm sitting in the bleachers with the cheerleaders and one of the other cheerleaders walks up to me and says," The coach is here, come get your uniform." I was so shocked xD. I just went," Er, my uniform?" XDDD. So then the coach gave it to me ( can't stop flailing about how kyoot it is x3) and then the bomb comes:"You're cheering tonight" -shot-

The surprises kept rolling that night lol.~ So I got my uniform on and I was so.....SO NERVOUS~!!! I had seen the cheerleaders cheer plenty of times so I guess I was kinda prepared but out of the blue, my uniform comes and I was expected to cheer. Nevertheless, the cheerleaders gave me courage to not be so afraid.

I did my best and the basketball team won! I made alot of errors though (nobody noticed luckily :3)

That's that for cheerleading. As for other things, life has been pretty smooth for the most part. Did I mention there's only two days till x-mas? I'M SHOCKED NYAN! I'm losing track of the important things now. I'm so horrible.~

My mom and my sister's birthday were last week. Forgot to mention that. Yup, my mom and my sister share the same birthday. What a nice surprise, getting a child as a birthday present. It's so sweet <333333

Believe it or not, my christmas list isn't that long. I normally get everything that I want and I don't ask for much cuz I'm not greedy XDDD. There was one item that cost like $400 but I didn't know it cost that much. It was a collection of Gackt CD's and Concert DVD's (I thought it was one CD. Sorry Dad!)

I hope to get more games for my psp, some makeup, more clothes and shoes, books and anything else people want to give me. A camcorder and a digital camera would be niceeee.....I want to spice up my blog with some pictures :]

Ah, 2009 has gone by fast hasn't it? I don't have any new year resolutions and I don't remember the ones I had back at the beginning of the year XDDD. I'm not that excited for 2012 for some reason. IDK maybe I'm being moody again lol.~

Throughout all this drama and everything that's happened to me, I believe I've done some major growing up and matured alot. I'm making smarter choices, I'm happier, I worry less and I'm finally getting the acceptance with my peers. What else could I ask for? I'm happier than a clam right now.

Love my friends <33333

Chikibon ish a baka >_<;

2009-12-11T13:11:00.000-08:00

Yeah....changed my layout. AGAIN! I like this one better cuz you have to type what you want o.o;

Still not sure if it works right XDDD. (haha I almost spelled right like write -shot-)

Ah, it's been SO long since I last blogged. I used to blog so much now but lately I've felt so out of it. Maybe cuz of all that's happened since I last blogged. Alot of drama and stuff I don't want to get into but I'll share some of it. Oh my thanksgiving was awesome just to let ya'll know.

My cheerleading uniform might not come in. The coach told me it would be too expensive to order a whole new uniform since it would have been cheaper to order one at the beginning of the year. So she told me I might have to pay to rent one from a girl who quit.

I'm not mad though, just a little disappointed. Nevertheless, I am grateful to still be on the squad and to actually have a uniform to wear. I can't complain.

Practice went well to say the least. I thought the coach would chew my head off but she didn't so I ish happy :3.

Chii-chan! I miss youssss. Ina-chan~! I miss you too~! Shinju-chan! Same for you :3

I got some language podcasts on my ipod for a whole bunch of languages that I don't feel like typing about right now XDDD. I'm not fluent in japanese.....YET! But I want to learn other languages as well lols.

This week has been difficult if nothing else. Lots of drama (can't get enough of it -_-) has happened. I'm gonna change my song of the month to something else. Hope I can fix the coding so I can play a youtube video instead of a mixpod player.

Sucky post again ;_;

Happy Turkey Day~

2009-11-26T08:23:00.000-08:00

Just like Halloween, I hope you all are/will have/having (lol) a safe and nice Thanksgiving. My house is CRAAAAZY right now x3. My aunt and cousin came over so my Mom and Aunt are downstairs cooking everything right now while I'm upstairs on her laptop. Cruel? Yes but I had to blog and wish everyone a great thanksgiving (lol). I can't say much has happened over the past couple of days. Things have been pretty boring for the most part. It makes me cho sad cuz now I have nothing interesting to blog about ;___;

ehh OH HAY YUHHHH........(???) My older sister is here from Thanksgiving break from college so she's here xD. Right now my Aunt and cousin are sleeping in my bed, my older sister and younger sister are sharing a bed and I'm sleeping with my mom. It doesn't bother me all that much that I had to give up my bed. I'm not THAT selfish kthxbai.

I didn't get to see New Moon! I'm so mad. I'll get over it though. My mom promised me I'll see it before the week ends. HOPEFULLY SO PRAY FOR ME NYAN >.>

My English teacher hates her students. I swear she does. We have homework.....over break. It's a project that's due December 4th. Kknowing me I'll procrastinate and do it at the last minute but WHY? I dun wanna have another thing to stress out about while I'm eating turkey. Gosh~~

Might as well start it before I forget. Last time I procrastinated.....I actually got the project done the day before it was due o.O~~ But that was an easy project though lol. Can't be doing this in college >.<

If you noticed the flag counter on my blog, I'm getting views all over the world.~COOOOLLLLL XDDDD. I hope I get some views from Japan, China, Korea, Taiwan etc. That would be cho awesome.

I'm currently in a Gackt craze right. Haruc-chan can't stop listening to his moozik. He's got such a lovely voice and he's so talented. I might fangirl but I don't think people would like that XD.

Once again, HAPPY TURKEY DAY!

Aishiteru.~

Pink Key.

2009-11-21T16:27:00.000-08:00

M'kays so I had fashion show practice again. I was choooooo upset because there was a new routine but looked difficult ;o;~I learned it in no time though xD

A-And the person in charged yelled at me because I got out of line to go get my lipgloss. Mah feelings were hurt but oh well >.>

But the good news is: I contributed to the planning of the routine~! XD

The guy asked everyone if they had some ideas and considering I had some experience in cheerleading and dance, I *timidly* said I had one idea. I told one girl and she was like "Well you should be in the front if you have that kind of experience" lols.

So I showed everyone (it's really difficult to explain the move though o.O) and the guy and everyone liked it! Score one for me.....I guess xD. I had to show the girl while everyone wasn't looking cuz I was so shy owo.

Now it's gonna be in the routine and we all have to make up a 30 second dance so we can decide which parts to add to the routine. I guess that'll be easy for me since people tell me I'm a good ballerina and dancer

I hurt my pinky today. My aunt and cousin came over with their Wii so while I was playing it, my sister accidently hit my finger with the controller. Now there's a blood clot under the nail so it's gonna fall off in a couple of months. IT BE HARD TO TYPE THIS POST 'CAUSE MY FINGER IS CONSTANTLY THROBBING WITH PAIN~!!!!!

Pray for meeeees. I have so much homework to catch up on. I'm also worried about alot of stuff. Idk. This has been a weird month for me xD

{Almost forgot. The song for my blog came from the K-drama "Winter Sonata". I really wanna watch that sometime if I'm not too busy nyan. I heard it was really good and tearful ^0^. I need to repost my image I had before. That red x is bothering me.}

One less.

2009-11-19T12:53:00.000-08:00

I am close to becoming one less person who will battle cervical cancer. Just gotta get one more gardasil shot and then I will be vaccinated~!

I was cho nervous T3T. I had to hold my mom's hand while I was getting the shot. The nurse was like "Don't look at the needle and STAY STILL!" and my mom said" Just relax ya big baby." What a way to erase the nervousness o3o. So finally *pinch* I got the needle and I was like ".......Did you put the needle in yet? (It had to go in my upper arm xD)". Srsly, the sight of needles terrify me. Which is why I would never survive in a hospital.

Before I got my shot I got a checkup and this is what I found out:

I WEIGH 124 POUNDS!!!! (Amazing.....? xD)
My height is 5'2. I'm close to accomplishing my dream of becoming a model! Just gotta meet the height requirements >.>

My doctor asked me the usual doctor questions blah blah blah. Then we came to the discussion about my sleeping troubles (don't wanna get started on that xD) and said he needed a blood sample to find out what's wrong because I might be anemic or something else.

Thus we went to the office and I had to get ANOTHER needle. This one was smaller and didn't hurt as much. It was odd to see my blood going into three different tubes though.

I had to wait 30 minutes before I could remove the band-aid the nurse put on my arm. Right near my elbow o.o. OMG almost forgot, right after I got my gardasil shot the nurse told me to stay in the room for 15 minutes in case I get a reaction to it. So right as my mom and me are leaving the room I "passed" out against the wall and she nearly had a heart attack! She was cho scared, I felt kinda bad cuz I didn't think she would get THAT scared but.....I couldn't resist XDDD. The nurse came in like "WHAT'S WRONG? WHAT HAPPENED?". My mom is leaning against the wall trying to catch her breathe and I'm like,""

THEN. AFTER THAT~~~~We went to Ihop and had breakfest XD. It was so gooooooood. I got cheesecake pancakes with strawberries and strawberry syrup, sausage, bacon and hash browns plus orange juice. I was so full.....I think I gained like three pounds xD. The doctor told me I'm not fat (*gasp*) and that my weight is perfect and I shouldn't gain any weight or lose any weight. Guess that means I have to stop exercising to get a six pack >.>. Oh well, I'm skinny :3

Sadly my mom made me go back to school even though I had three hours left until school was over. There was no point really.....It was near the end of the day and I had three classes left but oh well. It's done and over with.

I had to stay home yesterday, I was sick from lack of sleep. I was partially blind so my mom let me sleep in. That gave me time to catch up on homework and clean stuff XD. The doctor said I may have Obsessive Compulsive Disorder or Obsessive worry disorder because when I try and fall asleep a whole bunch of thoughts flood my mind so I spend half the night worrying/thinking/trying to sleep o3o.

What else..........My left arm where I got the gardasil shot hurts alot now nyan. I can hardly move it and it hurts whenever I touch it T3T. Maybe it will get better.

CHII-CHAN! I MISS TALKING TO YOU ON FACEBOOK! I WISH YOU HAD MSN!!!!NYAN!!!!! >_<. YOUTUBE ISH STUPID FOR DELETING YER ACCOUNT. IT NOT BE FAIR!

To finish this post I shall fangirl nao >D

NEW MOON COMES OUT IN THEATRES TOMORROW!!!!!!

I support that guy *points up*. Cuz I run with wolves and I prefer a space heater than a ice box kthxbai. Rather have someone who I can snuggle with instead of someone who is resisting the urge to suck me dry. Yeah, Team Taylor/Jacob because Edward......meh......just not my type XD. If I were a werewolf....I would NOT mind being in his wolfpack xD. Srsly if I ever met Taylor Lautner I would just DIE~! But don't think I'm a major Twilight fan, I'm not at every premiere trying to shake Robert or Taylor's hand and I'm DEFINETLY not screaming out "ROBERT BITE ME!!!" o.o. I'm not that obsessed. I still can't believe it's coming out TOMORROW! It was only months ago that I was complaining it was so far away. Summit Entertainment has been teasing fangirls everywhere with their scream of New Moon trailers. I think they knew what they were doing by making Taylor bulk up D<. Smart move yet so totally worth it *.*. I nearly had a episode when he came on screen with no shirt on owo.

Fashion show is lobve

2009-11-16T16:25:00.000-08:00

M'kayyyyy, I changed my layout AGAIN. But the background sorta hurts mah eyes ;o;

Last week there were tryouts for a fashion show at my school. This is the last one of the year cuz the person in charge of it will be graduating.

YET I ISH GOING TO BE IN IT.....hopefully xDDD;

The requirement is to wear heels. And not just ANY heels, stilettos

There's so much pain involved. I'm trying not to complain as much cuz that would make me seem lazy and not worthy of being in the show. So I'll suck it up.....for nao >_>. I never knew modeling would be this hard. The person in charge has singled me out more than once because my walk is too "lifeless and boring". I'm not taking any of it personally xD. It's constructive criticism after all so no need to get all emo tamaki about it lol.

Let's see....what else.....

OH! My cheerleading uniform ish coming soon! *YAY* I just have to prove that I deserve it............

I'll leave it at that xD;;

I WANNA HAVE MOAR GAMES FOR MAH PSP!!!! I've only got.....one game and a movie for it lol. It's "Final Fantasy Crisis Core" and "Kingdom of Heaven".

Zack Fair ish cho dreamy ;o;

Hopefully I'll get some for christmas. I ish spoiled~~~ And maybe some Itunes gift cards for my ipod >.>

Not that they're a necessity cuz I have 169 songs on it lol. I have a looooooonnnngggg christmas list. My family loves me that much.

I'll probably be pushing it by asking for a laptop. I already have an apple i-phone on my list. Maybe I could replace the laptop with clothes from yesstyle.com or items from yesasia.com~ Idk, I'll have to think about it @.@

I has homework....weak applause

2009-11-09T13:09:00.000-08:00

The first marking period is over.YAY~!!!

That doesn't take away the stresssssssss. I ish so worried about mah grades *u*. Math is the only class I'm worried about and still I'm worried about everything else. If my grades are low then my parents will freak, I'll look lazy in the cheer coach's eyes and....I WON'T FEEL GOOD ABOUT MAHSELF /shot.

.........

I need a vacation nao D<. I wanna go back to the Dominican Republic. Yeah, I went there earlier this year right before the end of the semester. It was choo purty over there. The beaches were beautiful ^0^.

And I feel so tired even though I'm getting more sleep than I used to.

My mom asked me what I wanted for christmas and I had nothing to say *o*. I thought I'd be bursting with everything that I had in mind but it just went blank /shot.

dkfljiskfejkdslkfslfds, THERE'S AN ESSAY THAT'S DUE TOMORROW (the same one I THINK I blogged about XD) AND I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY NYAN~~~!

Why must 10th grade be this hard?

My weekend was awesome (lol). I talked to my friend over MSN and we had the funniest/ most serious conversations EVER. He is cho epic ^.^~~

Ipoding <3

2009-11-03T16:22:00.000-08:00

I just got moar songs for my ipod~

Now I have 151 songs. O3O

They're mainly a mixture of......everything xD;;

dskfjhskdhfskdlfjsd......

-shot-

I couldn't go to practice again. I didn't have a rideeeee. I'm probably in trouble with mah coach T3T. I'm really beliving this ish karma though I haven't done anything bad to anyone......as far as I can remember owo

Hopefully I can sort everything out and not be in trouble -makes the Yamaguchi Kumiko stance-

I should start taking my blog song to heart. Odd how it reminds me of Hakuna Matata in some way *u*~

WE GOT A NEW FLATSCREEN TV~~~~!!!!

The UPS delivery man helped me bring it into mah house 'cause it was cho big ;o; Now it's just sitting in my livingroom waiting to be opened and useeed

Today in my Spanish class we had to present the photo albums we made~I made mine in a rush on Sunday (and it was due on Monday o.o) so mine was pretty bad but oh well~ I ish glad I just made it and got credit for it :3

We had the choices of using family members or celebrities~I did myself, Skandar Keynes (*Fangirl scream*), Orlando Bloom (*Super Fangirl scream*), Halle Berry (*Wolf whistle*) and finally.......*drum roll* TAYLOR LAUTNER (*faint*)

He be so gorjuss....I think he sparkles more than Edward >w< /shot. A-And I cannot....CANNOT wait until New Moon hits theatres. The trailers look so awesome nyan. It drives meh crazy and I can't wait anymore >___<>

*cricket chirp*

I don't even want to get back the Spanish final I took . I know I failed. I just know it. As soon as I get it it's going to be RECYCLED~I care about this earth kthxbai

Gawsh I need to stop being an introvert. I ish so shy sometimes it's not even funny ;e;

I gotta learn to stop having people speak for me and approach people that catch my interest. I'm not in elementary anymore o3o. I-It'll be hard though 'cause I ish so.....so.....*whispers* shy T3T

I'm in a new school with new opportunities and new people. IT BE TIME FOR CHANGE!

I finally got Skype today though I'm still trying to figure out how to work everything~ I think I have a webcam somewhere in my house xD I'll try and look for it

If you want to talk to me over Skype message me on MSN (look on my youtube page for eeettt)I'll gladly approave you if you seem friendly<3

Happy Halloween!!!

2009-10-31T12:57:00.000-07:00

I hope you all have/are having a safe Halloween!

^-^

For the past couple of days I've been fighting the allergies that seem to like making me miserable.

My nose is stuffy and my throat is really sore. I think I might be losing meh voice o3o.

a-and what's worse is I dun have any medicine so I must suffer ;.;

But pray for meeee.

Onto moar matters.....This week I had to take my Spanish final. I totally failed on that one I know I did xD. I didn't study at all -____-. I turned it in to the teacher thinking "NOOOOOOOOOO WHY DIDN'T I STUDY!!!!WHYYYYYYY" T3T

Ah I'll stop complaining now. I feel worse lols.

I had a 100% in Spanish now I'm down to a 90. something %. I WENT DOWN 10 POINTS NYAN!!! Report cards will be coming out sometime this week I think. I have a B+ in my English class so I'm not exactly worried about my grades because I ish a good student.

anywaysssss.......I dun have plans for Halloween surprising isn't it?XD

I might be taking my sister out to go trick or treating but I don't feel like it. So my Mom is making me go anyways.

What luck.

I thought I would go to a party or do something else sadly I don't have minutes on my phone. SO I CAN'T READ THE UNREAD MESSAGES THAT ARE WAITING TO BE READ!

rawr.

*u*

An odd thought struck me yesterday. If I were to die right now would I be happy or sad?Idk why I thought that but it's been bothering me since this morning XD. I figured out I would be happy. I've been blessed a thousand folds better than most of my friends. Sometimes I don't see it that way and most of the time I'm wishing that I had the lives of my friends and what they have. I never really look at the things I've already got or the things I may get in the future. I'm so unfrateful. It makes me mad sometimes. From now on I'm gonna be GRATEFUL NYAN!

Why?

'cause.....nobody likes an ungrateful whiny soul that's why =^o^=

I look at ett like this:

Both of my parents are still alive and healthy. I've been blessed to have them in my life and to have their love and trust.
I may not be the wealthiest person in the world but I've got food in my cabinet, clothes on my back, a roof over my head and a place to call home. How many people have that in this world?
I am not around violence, drugs, or any source of negativity. My Mom made a point of keeping me away from such things.
I haven't been abused in any way,shape or form.

There's wayyyyyyyy more but you get the idea.

But yeah, just my thoughts for today. Thanks for reading.

Cramming for finals.

2009-10-26T16:27:00.000-07:00

Everywhere I look there's a new benchmark or final that I have to take.

Is education supposed to be this nerve-wracking?

Gosh.

Anyways nyan, my weekend was good. I originally wanted to go spend the weekend with my friend but noooooooo. There was the issue of my Mom not knowing her Mom and yadda yadda yadda.

So I went to my dad's house instead xD. My sister Aubrey ish cho kyooot~! I left early in the morning. I got so mad when my dad came into the room I was in to wake me up.

I ish so not a morning person

Today was really boring. I don't have much to say. I am stressing out over school that I'm losing sleep and with that I forget assignments (>.<) My memory sucks.....it's so sad. Ehhh, what else happened today. Some guys were molesting each other at lunch. -shot-

Dead serious about that. I was sitting at my lunch table with my friends and they were acting like bakas. One guy got pinched somewhere and he said,"Now you have to buy me dinner."LOL

;;_;;

It's monday. I'm not usually enthusaistic on days after the weekend XD

Sometimes I feel like a walking zombie o3o. Meh, I prolly need a better breakfest lol. So I can be HAPPYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

So stressed >_<

2009-10-22T13:56:00.000-07:00

Alot has happened today. This post will probably shock/annoy some of you.

So I sent a text to the cheerleading coach asking me if she could give me a ride to practice today. She said no so I went on about my business.

A couple days before my mom and dad told me to talk to the school principle about letting me ride a bus to practice since the coach said I would be able to get on it.

A month ago I went to the school's secretary and told her about my situation. YET SHE SAID THAT I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO GET ON THE BUS BECAUSE IT DOESN'T BELONG TO THE SCHOOL'S DISTRICT. Something like that o_o.

ANYWAY. I talked to the principle about it. TODAY....THE DAY I HAVE PRACTICE. And he said he would work something out. You'd think my worries would be over. Nope.

While I was in 7th period, one of the administrators called me.

Administrator:"This is God."
Me:O_O
Administrator: Just kidding, it's Mr. ------
Me: Oh ok.

Yeah he really said that. To keep his privacy, he shall remain anonymous. And HE also said he will work something out but before I left school. Three o' clock rolls around and I have NO NEWS, nothing. When I got home I called my Dad, told him everything and he repeats the exact same thing yet he says he will call back. MUST LIFE BE THIS CONFUSING? RAWR.

THEN I called my mom and told her EVERYTHING. Her response?

"Call your Dad"

I wasn't aware that I was in a big gigantic "Telephone" game.

I really hope the Coach isn't mad at me. I mean what can I do?I don't have a ride. Maybe this ish karma.

Ramen is lobve

2009-10-20T13:10:00.000-07:00

So I changed my song. Haha now I feel as though my previous post was stupid XP. I'll probably change it back to Sakai Story some other time. It didn't seem to fit in with the bubbliness of the blog ;.;

*Hums along to current blog music* <3333

There be no cheerleading practice today. To tell you the truth I a LITTLE bit happy though....it gives me more time to do my homework xD.

I have now figured out what I'm starting to love more than anything. RAMEN NYAN~!!!!

I had some last night for dinner. Gosh I hadn't had any in a while and I forgot how much I loved it xDDD.

I STILL DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANNA DO COLLEGE WISE

Grr. So much confusion....it's ridiculous >_<. I have alot of career plans. Some of which I just have because they look nice o3o.

Gotta work on actually achieving those goals............*cricket chirp*

New blogskin.~

2009-10-19T07:20:00.000-07:00

I hope you all love it. Took me a while to get the song to play correctly -_-.

My song of the moment is "Sakai Story" by Gackt. Particularly because it made me bawl like an infant when I first listened to it but also because its touching. I might have an emotional breakdown if I keep listening to it ;.;

So the trip I took to my sister's college was fun. EXCEPT IT WAS RAINING CHO HARD NYAN. I WAS FREEZING OUT THERE AND SO WAS MY MOM AND SIS!

WHY WHY WHY DID IT HAVE TO RAIN SO MUCH!This weather ish gonna kill meeeeee.

So my mom and me and my sister were just standing in the rain while the football game was going on, I could barely move my legs and she was like "Just jump in place so your body temperature can go up". Though I have to give credit to the football players for playing out in the mud. Sadly someone got hurt and I hope they're ok :\. My older sister and the band she was playing with were very good. Most of them wore ponchos or jackets of some sort. I still can't believe they played out in the horrible weather.We stayed until halftime [The rain was really pouring down on us at this point]. Not to mention our limbs were on the verge of becoming popsicles.

When we left we went back to the band rooms and I slept on the floor in my sister's comforter. I was dead tired and hungry :S. The band got to eat spaghetti and bread rolls before they played. I had some too and so did my little sister. By that time I was complaining to my mom about us leaving since it was all over and it was time to LEAVE. I had to wait like 45 minutes, that's when I decided to take a nap.

We left, got something to eat and went back to the hotel we were staying at. I COULD BARELY WALK! My feet were numb and my legs were burning for some odd reason. Nevertheless we made it back and slept like babies.

I'll finish this later. I've got chores bleh.

On the road x3

2009-10-16T15:36:00.000-07:00

I think I might change my blogskin. I don't like how it's centered lol.

WE'VE GOT A FOUR DAY WEEKEND~!!!! Sugoi na.

I might just rest for the whole time x3.

SHINJU, I LOBVE THE NEW BLOG LAYOUT! iT'S CHO KAWAII NYAN XDD

So this weekend I'll be visiting my older sister plus I'll stay to see their homecoming game. Odd how theirs is a few weeks after mine o3o.

I watched a MV for Gackt's song "Story" I crieeeed. It was so sad. The music the lyrics.....everything. He must have really lost someone he loved. Regardless of it being in japanese, I still understood the message behind it. It's songs like that that make me sad. I hope he finds someone <3.

Gotta leave now. Bai bai~!

Stress is not good under any given circumstances -_-

2009-10-14T13:39:00.000-07:00

I HAVE A HUGE TEST TOMORROW AND I CANNOT REMEMBER A SINGLE THING MY TEACHER REVIEWED OVER IN CLASS TODAY

I. am. going. to. fail.

-_-

I seem to do this EVERYTIME I hear about a test I panic, forget I what I studied then cry over the grade I get because I panicked.

I have some serious problems with "remaining calm and collected". With my personality that conflicts with my constant urge to be loud and free xD. I have a sucky memory. Especially with school. I never usually remember anything I did the day before. IT'S ALL NEW O3O.

RAWR.

So anyways, yesterday at cheerleading practice some words were exchanged and a fight almost broke out. DOESN'T THIS GO AGAINST ALL CHEERLEADING VALUES?

Who am I to say so? >_>

It's pretty sad though because now some people don't like each other and blah blah blah.

It really really sucks.

So my mood is sad. Idk why but I feel like I'm wasting everyone's time simply by talking to them or anything else. I've had this feeling for years and everytime I tell someone this they're like "Oh you're fine" but then I get the feeling that they're telling everyone that I'm annoying. It's gotten so big that I just want to sit down and cry. Call me emo call me stupid I really couldn't care. It's because that I'm so sensitive and I just want to be liked and be seen in a positive light that I feel like this. GOD....WHY MUST I FEEL THIS WAY? But nooooooo.

When I'm having a bad day and I don't feel like talking, people get mad at me. WTF?

This just makes me so mad. It's like people can have bad days but I can't? Where is the logic?

I LOVE talking. Whether it's over the phone, on IM or just in person. Can you blame me for trying to be more socially attractive to everyone?I'm friendly, it's in my personality. And if it's true, sorry that I take the time to try and engage a civilized conversation with you so I can make new friends. I AM SO FREAKING SORRY. UGH.

I should stop being nice and friendly. That's my problem. Yet I don't like hurting people so it's just....I don't know. I don't need therapy. This blogging is actually helping me lol.

Bai Bai for now~

おひさしぶり　(です)

2009-10-10T16:59:00.000-07:00

Well not really because it's been 3-4 days since I last posted something. For those who can't see the title of this post it says "おひさしぶり　(です)" meaning "It's been a long time". Don't laugh at my pathetic attempt of trying to use Kanji to spell something. My words seem confusing as I type this. I don't make any sense nyan.~

It's weeiiirrrrd. It ish driving me crazy.

Not alot happened since I last blogged. Friday was terrible, I don't want to reveal why but it left me with a good lesson (again with the lessons that I learn and won't remember lol.) So basically I'm hurt right now.

ONTO SOMETHING THAT ISN'T SO DEPRESSING NYAN o.o;;

Another sucky post.

Gome ne.

And I'm back x3

2009-10-06T16:16:00.000-07:00

Haha that last post seemed very stupid to me :3.

So I'm finishing the huge pile of homework that keeps calling me from my book bag. There's sooooo much of it Nyuuuuu~ [an odd word that i'm obsessing over today :3]

I'm so sleepy. I didn't go to bed until 10 something last night. I was yawning alot today o3o.

That's not news though, I rarely ever sleep. Haha~

Inaaaa....I lobve your new blog layout~! The ninja music player ish adorable;;

I GOT TAGGED~! { I was a bit late in posting this lol}

First of all, state 5 interesting facts about the person awards you:

☆ Chii-chan ish sweet!

☆ I absolutely lobve her youtube videos though I haven't subscribed to her because I'm rarely on youtube nowadays xD<3

☆ She ish awesome~!

☆ Even though I just met her, I consider her a friend because she's so nice ^.^

☆ Ummm........SHE LIKES J-POP MUSIC!!!RAWR [o.o]

I have alot to say about myself x3

~1) Chynecia-chan desu. I was born on April 1, 1994 in the U.S.

2) I may seem shy and timid at first but that's only because when I'm around new people, I'm not as open as I would be around people I know but once you get to know me, you'll find that i'm VERY hyper and random x3.

3) I LOVE FRUITS!!!If I could I would have an apple, orange, banana and kiwis everyday as a snack. OOOhhh and grapes too. Let's not forget those xDD.

4) My future goals are to become a singer/actress/dancer/model and on the side, I could be a botanist or a dermatologist. I have alot of goals because if one thing fails, I want to have a backup plan.

6) I'm a major Otaku. Don't like it?Oh well....NO LOBVE FOR YOU!!!

7) I listen to visual kei, classical, Hip-Hop, R&B, J-Pop, K-Pop,C-Pop and Pop music alot ^^.

8) KAT-TUN, Gackt, and The GazettE are my favorite japanese artists/bands.

9) When I get mad I yell and scream alot.

10) Favorite Japanese actresses:Erika Sawajiri, Erika Toda, Shinohara Ryoko, Yukie Nakamura, Mika Nakashima

11) My mood changes like the wind o.o

12) I have alot of clothes, some of which I don't even wear xDD.

13) Taylor Lautner is my current celebrity crush.

14) I really wish I could become an idol in Japan, maybe join H!P or Hello Project e.e

15)My favorite color is scarlet red. It's so beautiful :3.

16) I am extremely flexible. I can put both of my legs behind my head.

17) I am a MAJOR Final Fantasy fan. Lulu [FFX] is my favorite character.

18) I want to learn different languages like Chinese, Japanese, Spanish, Italian. All sorts!

19) I don't like angering people sometimes. It starts a snowball effect of basic drama >:\

20) I'm afraid of spiders. If I see one I scream and jump away. That's why I have to get my Mom to kill them for me.

21) I want to someday cosplay as Lulu or Haruhi Fujioka one day.

22) I'm running out of things to say.

23) I want to travel the world.

24) I want to help out people in the world. The links on my blogs aren't there for show. GO TO THE SITES NYAN~!

25) My hopes include changing the world, earning lots of acting awards and credits plus basically LIVING LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!

I DON'T KNOW WHO TO TAG~!SORRY!!!

Sucky post. yeah I know xP

Just a quick update,

2009-10-06T12:42:00.000-07:00

I had to write 2 spanish verbs 25 times each since most of the students in my spanish class failed a test.
Practice went by really well yesterday. I learned some new cheers.
And that little "problem" I told you about with my friends, it's all resolved now. WE ALL LOBVE EACH OTHER!!!
I don't have much else to say XD.

So I finished the spanish homework. Mah hand was cramped up like a balled tissue >>;;

I'm going to practice in a few minutes so I wanted to post up something right quick. So the problem is resolved, we're all friends. I'm not going to put out my business to the world like I used too xD. My day was relatively good for the most part. I zonked out in math class because I was drawing on a white-board she let us borrow to solve some problems. Biology class, I missed most of that because I was resolving that conflict with my friends.

Gah, my mind ish everywhere. I'll blog later.

Ciao.~

Everything HURTS.

2009-10-04T13:04:00.000-07:00

My left knee ish sore today. All that dancing last night totally threw my body out xD. I was doing alot of splits last night so that's why I'm in pain. So like I was saying, I danced with alot of people. Odd how I can't really remember much of anything o.o. I went to bed at like 1:23 in the morning xDDD. I was so pumped last night. It took me a while to fall asleep. II must not get out as much >.>. I'm a total party animal but I HAVE LIMITS AS TO WHAT I DO TO HAVE FUN!!!

Instead of alcohol, I'll have soda.
Instead of binge drinking, I'll chug water x3.

Corny? So what...I like to play it safe <3.

During the dance we had to split the crowd in the middle so the Homecoming Court could walkthrough. I don't know why we had to since they did that during the Homecoming Game yesterday xDD. But I waved and cheered. The music was loud [DUH!] so my ears kinda hurt this morning o.e.

My apetite last night disappeared. All I had was.....*trying to remember* ehhh.....WHAT DID I HAVE???

O.O

Oh wait now I remember....I had cheesecake and that was it. This ish what I get for staying up late. My bedtime is 9 p.m. Yeah it may seem early to you night owls but considering that I'm not a morning person, I have an early bedtime. But I never fall asleep at 9....usually 10 or 11 is when I get in bed but I 12 or even 1 is when I close my eyes to sleep xD.

Ah I don't have much to blog about today. I just sat around the house and cleaned up my room but that's all. I have homework to do. I hope I can get that done tonight :3.

Byeee~!

What a fun night x3

2009-10-03T20:46:00.000-07:00

I cannot even begin to explain how great this night was. I went in there not expecting much but WOW~! I was proven wrong xDD. First when I got there the hallway that leads to the cafeteria, I saw a whole bunch of Michael Jackson songs that were written on black paper and decorated with silver gloves and other pictures. It was so pretty I wish I could've taken a piccy of it but my phone doesn't let me send pictures to my e-mail TT^TT.

Anyway I met up with some of my friends and started dancing with them. Basically I was all over the place xDDD. I was outside dancing with people and dancing with people inside. That explains why my feet hurt like crazy lol. Lots of people were grinding on each other [dry humping played a major role in this homecoming dance o.o] Sorry to throw it out there but in order to correctly tell how my night went I have to include ALL the details. Shut your eyes if this offends you :3.

So I got in a crowd of people who were "dancing" [I use that lightly] and danced with about half of the guys who were standing around. That might sound whorish o.o. I went out to the hallway to get a drink a couple of times. I mainly drank soda so that explains the hyperness xD.

They played "Thriller, Bad, Beat it, Pretty Young Thing" all by the infamous Michael Jackson. I give kudos to the DJ for playing those songs and also the "Cha Cha Slide". I lobve that song. Like the saying goes, "Time flies when you're having fun." And pass it did....all too quickly x3. Oh I almost forgot, they played "Single Ladies" also which I danced to and failed epically if that's even a word. During the Thriller song I was dancing but this little boy beat me....his snaps and MJ impersonations made mine look sloppy lol.

It was so dark in the cafeteria. I couldn't tell where my friends were. I had to squint really hard to see who was who. All of the flashing colorful lights were starting to make my eyes hurt.

I didn't even realize my feet hurt until I took my heels off. It was like "WHOOSH, HERE COMES THE PAIN!!!!" and I just cringed because they hurt SO MUCH. Grrr. The same lesson has been learned again. Why am I so hard-headed?XDDDD

The dance ended at 10:47ish even though my ticket said 11 p.m. I don't plan on going back to sleep unless I spontaneously fall down on the floor somewhere and don't wake up. I'm pretty sure I might do it. I'm hyper right now but it's on the verge of drowsiness. I wanna run around and scream until I turn blue. Haha I'm so weird~

MY MOM BOUGHT CHEESECAKE TODAY~!

It ish yummy. There's like a hard crust on the back part of it and strawberries on the top. Yummy~ I finished a slice my Mom was too full to eat. It was good and I doubt I'll eat anything else tonight. I'm too hyped up if I haven't pointed that out.

I'll give more details tomorrow~!

HOMECOMING WOO HOO~!!!

2009-10-03T13:50:00.000-07:00

IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!!

And for some odd reason I'm not bursting with joy like I thought I would be o.o;;

I'm weird today. Gomenasai.

I'll be wearing the dress I wore to my old school's homecoming. I might post a picture up but that'll be the dress I'm wearing. There's no time to pick another one and I really lobve my old dress x3.

I have to go get ready. This post was so short lol.

I shall unleash the blogging spree when I get back!

I'm in trouble....again.

2009-10-03T06:36:00.000-07:00

I've missed TWO PRACTICES so far. And for that my Mom seems to think that I'm not taking this seriously. I'm so mad right now you could probably boil an egg on my head. I think I might have another panic attack. I'm in that mood again. She apparently thinks I'm lazy and that I "want something for nothing". My house is a constant battle ground with her. Everyday there's a fight about something I do or about something that I say or anything else she decides to yell at me about.

This is turning out to be a crappy day. Sorry for the negativity, my anger has a way of coming out in ugly forms :3.

I know the whole "parents do things because they love you" crap. Believe me I've heard it so much I could turn it into a song. She does things that make me mad so I have to write it out in a diary that she later finds and punishes me for writing in or I can rant in this here blog. MWAHAHAHAHA~!

*Ahem* I'm starting to feel better. This blogging has a way of taking away some of that anger. I'm really really really really really really really really really worried now. My chances of officially getting on that squad are getting slimmer with each mistake I make. My Mom thinks I'm making excuses and sometimes I am and sometimes I'm not. Sorry that I'm not perfect....

*cries*I do feel horrible also. I'm just a bubble of sadness today. Please excuse the anger folks, it'll be temporary I promise. I just need to figure out how on Earth I am going to learn the routines and cheers in an attempt to prove my Mom wrong and get on that squad OFFICIALLY.

[Oh yeah I'll do the tag thing later Chii-chan~! I promise *holds up pinky finger*]

I missed one practice to go to a school meeting again and the one practice that was after the pep rally, I missed that one also. And I didn't call the coach to let her know that I missed BOTH practices so that adds more strikes to my list. I'm going into a spiral here..........my head might fall off my shoulders Dx.

I could cry right now. I think I might. I'm so frustrated and hurt that I'm not pushing myself as hard as I could. I want to be on that squad with all my heart and soul. If this year wasn't meant for me then there is always next year. BUT I WANT IT THIS YEAR SO BADLY NYAN~!

Why ish I not showing it?Ugh I'm starting to get a headache now.

The Homecoming game starts at 1:30 but I need to be at the school at 12. Man I don't think I'll be able to show my face to the coach now. She probably doubts my commitment to the squad. And the rest of the squad probably thinks that too. This just makes the situation worse o3o.

If I go to practice today I don't know what will be awaiting me there.

Not even the thought of the Homecoming Dance or picking out a nice dress cheers me up. Dame desu TT^TT.

あなたは私のポストのための読書に感謝します。

Bai Bai minnasan~!

What a rotten day

2009-10-02T12:54:00.000-07:00

Friday's are my better days. The one part of the week I look forward to unless I'm doing something afterschool for a whole week then I enjoy everyday xD.

Except this Friday was one where everything just seemed to spiral into basic nothingness.

[Note: This is somewhat of a rant but for the sake of keeping up appearences, I won't rant as much :3]

Earlier this week I was having some problems with some friends so I told another friend that I wasn't speaking to them. It seems as though that friend that who I told about my problem went behind my back and switched up my words. Now those friends are mad at me and I'm mad at the friend who I told because I told her to keep it a secret. Ugh.

DRAMA!!!!!

WHO NEEDS IT HONESTLY???

I JUST WANT TO SHOOT IT IN THE FOOT o3o

And it's just beginning because one of the girls who I have a problem with has started calling me names and said that I said that I wanted to beat her up.

Confusing right?

Yeah I know, it's all stupid and pathetic. I'm trying to pay it no mind but it bothers me that someone who I told something would switch up my words in an attempt to start drama. What is wrong with the world?

Sheesh.

I'm so sad right now. This post lacks its usual bubbliness TT^TT.

I just want this whole thing to be over with.

........................

On to a happier note. We had a pep rally at school today for Homecoming. There's a game tomorrow [I'm not sure if I'm gonna go since I still have to find a dress xD]. It was alot of fun, plenty of screaming and yelling and feet-stomping. I thought I would lose my voice 'cause I was screaming so much xD. The cafeteria was decorated with Michael Jackson decorations. Basically each grade had a wall to decorate and since the theme of Homecoming is "Remember the Time" each wall had Michael jackson posters and/or pictures hanging up. It looked really nice though, it woke me up today because I was amazed at all of the decorations and pictures that were up lol.

Homecoming ish gonna be sweet~!

I dun have a date so that makes it better. I won't be stuck around one person for a whole night :D.

Speaking of which....I still haven't found a dress. I ish working on it. I SHALL NOT LOSE HOPE!

*Pumps fist in the air*

xD;;

Ah....OH YEAH

AVEX is hosting ANOTHER WORLD-WIDE TALENT SEARCH!!! I found out last night when I was just reading up on past auditions and found out they were doing it again this year. Like the previous post says, I want to audition but I'm not sure if I should. I'm not all that confident in myself xD.

So for those who want to know if it's true or not, go to google and type in "Avex Auditions 2009".

Thanks for reading~!

HaruPikaChu[A nickname I just came up with xD]

AVEX World Auditions 2009

2009-10-01T19:04:00.000-07:00

OMMMG

[Yes I purposely put two extra M in there]

AVEX is hosting another audition?!?!?!?!

-faint-

I can hardly type this right lol.

I can't believe it....I really can't.

Well I have no idea why I'm all excited and I never even auditioned for the first Star Search xD.

Maybe it's the possibility that I COULD BE COME AN IDOL TO MILLIONS IN THE LAND OF THE RISING SUN!!!!

:3

Hmmm....if I audition I'll most likely do modeling or acting. Maybe even singing if I have the courage o.o

Since the song doesn't have to be in Japanese that should ease up the pressure right?

WRONG!

BECAUSE ME CAN'T SING ALL THAT WELL!!!

-shot-

I ish learning though. I really am. I would LOVE to audition except it seems time-consuming. Gah, I'm thinking negative here. THINK POSITIVE THOUGHTS!!!

I'll ramble more about this tomorrow hopefully. I need to get to bed.

Bai Bai~

*Waves*

My feet are killing me xD;;

2009-10-01T13:27:00.000-07:00

The title does not lie~!

This week ish spirit week so the students dress up according to the themees of the day.

Monday-Mix&Match Day
Tuesday-Twin Day
Wednesday-Retro Day
Thursday-Celebrity Day
Friday-Blue & Gold [school colors]

I didn't do mix and match because I totally forgot about it plus I didn't have a twin for twin day so I didn't do that either xD. Oh yeah....didn't do retro day either. All of my ideas sucked o.o

SOOOO....I DID CELEBRITY DAY!!!

I had a MILLION ideas nyan xD. First I wanted to be Beyonce from "Single Ladies"[which was quickly pushed aside considering I didn't have the makeup, hair, height or glove that she has xD]

I thought about being Janet Jackson or Jennifer Lopez or Avril Lavigne.

The height issue kept getting in the way of my ideas >:

Finally I settled on being Tyra Banks. I have clothes that she would wear so it was all down to a matter of looking like her instead of wearing model-like clothing xD.

Me and my Mom had a little fight over me wearing her shoes which are like platform stilettos [I forget what they're called lol.] which lasted about 10 minutes. I was mad at her until I brought it up again then she let me wear them :].

I'll have to post up pictures of what I wore today since my adjective skills aren't that perfect lol.

But I only stumbled twice in these heels. They're really tall and black.....they're a killer to the feet -_-

As soon as I got home I took the shoes right off. In school I really wanted to walk around barefoot [yesh I had that urge]. I didn't bring flats or another pair of shoes with me *gasp*. SO I SUFFERED THROUGH THE DAY WITH A PROUD FACE ON!

.......

It taught me a lesson though. Never wear heels without backup shoes. The pain will not be felt in vain [hey that rhymed o.o]

I didn't go to cheerleading practice today because of a meeting at my school. Luckily it won't be held every Thursday because idk what days cheerleading will fall on. That would put a major conflict in my schedule o3o.

Today at lunch me and my friend went up to a boy I sit next to in Algebra and we started singing "Can You Feel the Love Tonight?" and she yelled at us xD.

Oh yeah.....ummm.....what else..........my memory ish failing me so forgive me nyan~

I didn't win Homecoming Queen. *BOO HOO*.

No reason to get all upset about it. Someone told me I was the only one nominated and I was sure that I would win but eh, whatever. Maybe next year!And plus it's not like it's Prom Queen. TEMPERMENTAL FLARES ARE NOT NEEDED JUST BECAUSE I DIDN'T WIN HOMECOMING QUEEN!!!

^.^

AH I STILL DIDN'T GET A DRESS FOR HOMECOMING!!!

I can't help but panic. It's just who I am though. If something that was supposed to happen a week ago didn't happen and the due date for it to happen is coming up I FREAK OUT LIKE CRAZY!I'm trying to be more laid-back now that I'm in a new school.

No more neurotic episodes >.<~

Now I'm thinking about "No More Cry" by D-51 from the Gokusen drama. *sigh* That was such a good show. Jin Akanishi ish an awesome actor <3.

By the way...I'm a major KAT-TUN FAN.

Did I mention that I loved KAT-TUN?

OH WELL......

KATTUN.....KATTUN....KATTUN <33333

Gah, I've got so much homework. Mainly Algebra and Biology and ummm idk. I have to look in my planner xD.

Arigatou Gozaimasu for reading~!

Stay tuned for more~!

An important lesson~

2009-09-29T16:15:00.000-07:00

Today...was not a good day TT^TT.

Well I went to cheerleading practice today and I talked to the coach and we had a discussion about some rumors that were flying around about me. Now I'm worried I might not make the squad since I'm on "probation" [meaning I will have to prove to the coach that I deserve to be on the squad].

Mou~

I'm so worried.

My stomach ish doing backflips and frontflips right now o3o.

I'm trying not to panic like I usually would xD;;

But it's hard not to. I really really really want to be in the squad. AND I WILL MAKE THAT SQUAD NO MATTER WHAT!Especially since my family spent $225 for the uniform o.o

Yeah it's that expensive....but whose complaining?

...........

ON TO A MUCH MORE CHEERFUL SUBJECT NYAN~

Homecoming ish this weekend and I haven't even gotten a dress and I feel a panic mode coming on even though I said I wouldn't panic ><.

I've got cheerleading practice EVERYDAY this week.....ugh.

My Mom and I are gonna look for a dress ON THE EXACT DAY OF HOMECOMING!!!!!

Isn't there some superstition about that?xD

Regardless....I will find a dress and I will make the squad even if it kills me. I'm dead serious though.

If I can't find a dress then I guess I can't go since my old one doesn't fit me anymore lol. I had to get sewn into it.

Thanks for reading this post~!

Sayonara.

Testing Testing 1,2,3~

2009-09-28T17:38:00.000-07:00

Just wanted to see if this post will work XD.

Hi all~

Thanks for coming to read my blog.

I signed up for blogger a couple of months ago but never actually used this blog. I thought I didn't necessarily have much to blog about o3o. So now I'm going to use this to tell you all about my daily life, personal interests and goals/dreams.

I hope you enjoy reading this~